MaC- So many youth wish to die or having suicidal feelings. Whether they be exaggerated or completely founded, they still have them. I believe this is the beginning of our humanity’s de-evolution. Our extinctions pre-amble. Eventually the people on this planet shall destroy it all because of *apathy*.
All I know is, I fucking hate myself and want to die. I am too confused and too much of a mistake maker to be allowed to live on. I want to sleep. But I know there are people that want me to stay here. I don’t know why. I’d wish that someone who truly loves me would help me leave this place…but that’s an overtly selfish request and I’d never do that to someone. Plus, I wouldn’t want someone I love/am close to to go to jail for assisting a suicide.
-_-; Instead I shall sit in my room, I will stop doing Tumblr for some time as I’ve already stopped doing FB…and not contacting my friends as much (though they don’t contact me much either anymore…but it takes two to tango and I could definitely try harder) and listen to music. In the dark. With my knife at my side, begging me to allow it to kiss my flesh and end my apathy. Hopefully I will get myself out of this funk. Hopefully this silly emo ranting will curb some of these suicidal feelings…though I feel this way most all of the time :-\
I want to say this: I *truly* hope all of my followers are having a great day. Unlike most suicidal depressive individuals I do not hate everyone or blame anyone for how I feel. I am sorry to rant about such depressing shit. I just have to get it off of my chest and this is the closest to anonymous way I could think to do it.
The world is beautiful, and so are the people in it…if you know how to be a part of it and exist in it…I do not. I fucking suck at being alive. I don’t deserve the gift. A word of advice: don’t give up like me. Keep trying. There are too many of us (suicidal people) on tumblr…some of whom I believe are just being melodramatic and almost *trying* to be pretentious and “deep” and in “pain”. Do yourself a favour and stop it if you can. Go outside and feed upon the sunshine if it shines. Drink in the rain if it rains. Scream the lyrics to your favourite song if it should come on. Okay. *Now* I’m done ranting. Goodnight and good luck.
Nirvana- I hate myself and want to die http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TP06kxW_M3I
Radiohead- Just (You do it to yourself)- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9-cFaVlh40
Beck- Loser- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rsCAy9ErdKY
Cranberries- Ridiculous Thoughts- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QyIMfpVxcV8
Dubstar- Stars- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-x6ywUqVvk
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